“How could he take his own life, he’s so selfish”

How dare you think that coming to the conclusion and actually pursuing suicide is an “easy” task, you will NEVER understand how hard life is for some people, you may think that suicide is not the answer but you don’t know. You judge without thinking, without wondering and without feeling.

Compassion is something that needs to be re-instilled in our society. You cannot and will not understand everyone’s choices, but at least learn how to respect it. Respect them. You’re strong, you’ve “survived” worse and so you expect everybody around you to be just as strong. So let me explain it to you from a different perspective.

You will NEVER walk in the same foot steps as anybody else, you’ll never feel pain or hurt the same way they do and you’ll never completely understand why someone would take their own life if you’re not willing to take YOU outta the equation. There’s nothing harder for me to talk about than this because it’s so personal 1. Because I’ve felt that way and 2. Because I recently lost a cousin to suicide. I saw what pain was left behind.

People feel differently, they react differently and suffer pain & heartache differently, it’s easy to say “move on” or “let go” but that game changes when someone doesn’t even feel like they’re living. When they feel like they’re just existing and can’t and don’t wanna “waste” a life because what they’ve been through is too hard for them to take.

The 13year old who’s been bullied at school, yet comes home and smiles, the jealous ex who tries so hard to fix all that’s broken, the young boy living in a world full of fake people – life.

Circumstances are different for everyone’s journey. A person can be so strong for so many years and you will never pick up that something is wrong. I did it, all the way from grade 3 right up to grade 10 – I suffered in silence, nobody knew what I was going through, not my family, not my friends, no one. It was me literally waking up every morning and asking why I was still alive.

As bad as it was I underestimated how alone I felt, I was surrounded by people who loved me, and supported me and yet, I still felt completely alone. It was painful. Life was painful & finally I just couldn’t take it anymore. Everything that was supposed to be normal wasn’t.

Life happens, it’s how you find the joys in all the negativity in life that’ll determine how strong you are. That 16 year old girl who used to cry, slit her wrists and just try to escape is happy. Not completely happy, but happy.

All I’m trying to say here is, if you don’t want to lose someone close to you to suicide, pay attention. There are always signs, with me – I fell into a depression, something I’m fighting so hard to avoid right now. You see me smile & “lol” but you’ll never really know if someone is happy.

There are things in life that you will go through that’ll make you question if life is worth living. Suicide is your choice, yours and nobody else’s. I understand your pain, more than you think, but please, there’s a reason why God has blessed you with the people you have in your life. You don’t have to go through life feeling alone.

You think people don’t care, but you’ll never see all the pain you’ve left behind. So please, think. It’s your life, but your life could be so valuable to someone else’s.

Life may go on, but some wounds, never heal.

This Article was written by LEE